me. The grinch has my heart right now but I'm putting on a happy mask for my son. He deserves better.

Namaste.

The Christmas spirit is just tickling my ribs now; it hasn't made it to my heart. I just can't seem to catch it this year. I'm broke yet of course spendi

ng like I got the Benjamins.

And this will be the first year in my life spending Christmas without my father. He died March 12, 2013 from lung cancer.